A Creative Warfare: Sanity Vs Vanity.

Last week, I had one of those pretty intense schedules.  These are the times when the days seem to merge, the clock spins fastest and I easily loose sense of time (and sleep)...But hey, I say all this, without complaint.  You see, I have moments reminding me that it's all worth it.

My passion is collaborating with talented artists with a positive message.  I want the talented artists and musicians I work for to be heard at their very best, so they impact audiences with quality presentations.  Pursue excellence at all costs...without compromise.  Yes it's exhausted, again I say, it's all worth it!


Is it a call of duty!? Hmmm kinda!  It is s calling alright, although...

...I endeavor to lean towards the right side two possible directions, sanity and vanity!


Bet you didn't expect to hear a statement like that  from a "sound guy" right?  Honestly, I'm not trying to be profound here, do you smell what I'm stepping on?  If we knew the difference between the two possible creative avenues, we could achieve the right type of success with efficiency!  I may have lost you, if I did, please bear with me a moment, I can explain (I hope).

Let me start with a shameless copy and paste from a Google web dictionary...



  1. the ability to think and behave in a normal and rational manner; sound mental health."I began to doubt my own sanity"synonyms:mental health, faculties, reason, rationality, saneness, stability, lucidity; More
    • reasonable and rational behavior.synonyms:(common) sense, wisdom, prudence, judiciousness, rationality, soundness, sensibleness"sanity has prevailed"




  1. 1. excessive pride in or admiration of one's own appearance or achievements."it flattered his vanity to think I was in love with him"synonyms:conceit, narcissism, self-love, self-admiration, self-absorption, self-regard, egotism; More
    • 2. the quality of being worthless or futile."the vanity of human wishes"synonyms:futility, uselessness, pointlessness, worthlessness, fruitlessness"the vanity of all desires of the will"


    There is a mental warfare going on, and it's not exclusive to artist and musicians, we all struggle with it from time to time.


    Im truly blessed to serve talented, grounded and focused musicians, producers, rappers, singers and songwriters here in America and Europe.  Honestly, I think it's nothing short of a miracle in a media-centric world that spews vain glory bombarding us with time-wasting meaningless content.  Unfortunetly we are not immune to effects, but we try to keep ourselves accountable. Community is essential for an creatives.

    In and out of Studio325 I often find myself in interesting conversations about our personal creative warfare.  Only last week a talented artist stugggled with what I call "red-light syndrome"... the artist was so concerned about how he/she would be perceived by an audience.  Now, that can trip anyone up!  Another I worked with was  occupied with sounding too much like a certain musicians...

    Jacob Emmanuel and I in Studio 325.  For the record, this brother is one of those talented geezers that keep me grounded. 

    Jacob Emmanuel and I in Studio 325.  For the record, this brother is one of those talented geezers that keep me grounded. 


    It's an artist killer, that moment can rob you of your joy!


    As an engineer I have found myself battling the most during the quietest and busiest periods...I fear failure, which prohibits me from taking on more ambitious projects.  

    I discovered scripture to guide me.

    Colossians 3:23-24. "Whatever you do, do it enthusiastically, as something done for the Lord and not for men, knowing that you will receive the reward of an inheritance from the Lord. You serve the Lord Christ."


    Now, this is a ground breaker for me.  Removing the temptation to pursue things that leads to serving oneself allows me record, mix and master music free of ego and greed.  I believe I can serve you better with a healthy vertical faith because it impacts enthusiasm in my horizontal relationships. 


    If you are a creative artist, musician or producer, and you are reading this...take a moment to look at your yourself and share some of your thoughts...

    ...what holds you back from being free to express yourself creatively?   

     ...do you have a fear that's preventing from discovering your true potential?

    ...what do you think about my comments regarding this warfare, or am I way off lol?


    Feel free to like, comment or share...or disregard completely (its all good)!

    Whatever you do, have a great week!

    Calvin Venus